Will

We're not
allowed to smoke
in the bathroom of my school.
so I drink a diet coke instead
and the nutra-sweet
revives me and I feel
alive enough while it
spills over my tongue,
I feel alive enough not to
cut open my veins and
taste the life inside.
Every second is a war
with my self-esteem not
to rip open my skin
and swallow life into my
stomach.
I write about it as
I suck down my diet coke,
that puts it off a little more.
Every second is a war.