Harm

I won’t harm you
stop squirming.
The needle I put in
will work itself out when it has
grown black with
pleasure.  For a bit,
I am the thin live girl show but afterwards
it's like I'm laying in
bed about to sleep and
I feel my body pulse
and I see
my blood shine liquid slick
all over the kitchen floor in a trail
to the window
and out
the window
to my safe place friend below.
Have to go somewhere else
to do this
have to go downtown
or around the block at least.
Have to get it inside
Have to make someone see
Have to have
have to
Be smaller
Cheeks rounder
Cannot breathe
until I have attained,
and I’ve seen what it can do what it can make me.
And I say,
I want nothing but a
swarm of harm inside my arms.