Gwen

"And seem I a saint, when most I play the Devil."

All I can see in
our apartment is
"things of hers that you
left lying around."
There's things she
has left as well:
eyeliner next to the sink.
Makes me
remember her eyes,
how they shone sultry.
I see her mouth
has left a film on the rim
of the glass she drank from
last night,
while she and I
(and you)
wacthed tv in silence.
She smiled then,
half at me,
half at you,
but then,
we thought it was all for us.
We did not know
better.
I love her;
you fuck her.
But it's all the same to her.
Someday I know you'll catch us
breathless with happiness
in the kitchen,
and you'll know
and rip her
away.  I'm sorry
all this happened, but
she came in one night out of the rain...
She knew- she had to know-
that you weren't home.
She's Satan,
they way she silently implores
me to lust.
And yet, I won't even kiss
her.  I can't do that to my best friend.
I love her.
You can't,
judging from the way she craves
my love.
She doesn't even know a thing.